Life reason

When i started growing in to my teenage i wondered what life is about?? till den i graduated from the hell of studies, exams and everything seemed like a bowl of Hippocrates living their lives in the same old world where nothing exists, nothing exists where they still smile around and searching there happiness through the corridors of living relationship and often failed to realize that god has created happiness in every corner and every thing , i mean in every "Things", where we often fail to realize and analyse what's it about. There were the days when I used to wake up in middle of the night wondering where I would  land up , is there a definite destination, why do people often find mistake's in one's life, why is it about only the earning and living, why isn't the life apart from it, why the hell people adopt things which are end to the line, which they cannot reach. When wind passes by it plays a melody of joy where i realize life is less and less to live, days and years just passes by where memories remember the hunger in me driven me through the world of craziness, i had discovered the happiness when i had ran away from home when i was a kid, wandering and wondering in the streets, with not less than a penny in my pocket. Life taught me to live in the hunger , fight with the emotions which break me in to the pieces and turn me in to a paper which flies in the storm , i knew i ain't been to the stage where i could think so much, little smile on the face scratching my head and tumbling the day again with hell lot of confusions. We are often forced to live with reflections of past, and live every day like a passing cloud. When you decide to be crazy, you drown in the thoughts beveling that life needs more space, space where complete freedom like nature, remaining in the silence of beauty and in the hands of branches, hanging around with couple of astonishing realities.

 I had often heard that Core of man comes from new experiences, so Life is about living yourself and living your dreams. World is wild and deep; Explore and hunt it down, live through the confusions and new explorations in reality and with definite certainty. Silence and words are the two faces of a same coin, when life push you into the silence, words grab you down and pull you down into the thoughts and imaginations, where you live among the words, among the dreams, among the world, where nothing exists for a while. Money, lives of people, culture,career, seems like a world of imaginations when you break through the barriers of living your life into the freedom, which you desire. Standing no where, walking out to unknown destination, hilltops, river , mountains , nature , birds, animals , blue sky, all these live their life just wild , so wild that man kingdom would wonder how they lived in the pre-historic stages of lives. You just stand out there , out on the edge of the world, edge of the world where every thing looks tiny every thing looks wonder, where birds fly with freedom, where rivers flow with joy , where clouds meet up the mountains and this is where you wanna live and this is where you find your eternity and happiness is found when you breathe your last breathe forever, with a joy filled in it...... and that would be the day i would be me and me living with a complete freedom. That's when you silence breaks, breaking through narrow steeps of life, breaking through the waves of emotions, breaking through the valleys of disappearance, breaking through the contaminated life cycle, breaking through the convinces and  finally fearing to what we are shouting at...